Perhaps you’ve noticed that it’s been a bit of a drought here on the ole’ JoblessJulie blog. That’s likely due to the fact that I’m not Jobless anymore. Ah, the fun the last five months have been! There was a vacation to Vail, a serious shopping trip to Columbus where I more than made up for my lack of shopping between June 2009 and December 2009. While I’ve been enjoying the bliss that is once again having a steady paycheck – I’ve also been working – really, really hard. The problem with losing your job is that once you’ve lost a job, you never totally recover mentally.
Think back to the first person that really broke your heart. Have you ever gone into another relationship with the naive bliss that you went into that one? Nope – you now live in a constant state of waiting for the other shoe to drop. I suppose that’s what growing up is all about. You have more money, but you also have a lot more scars. Losing your job sort of reminds me of that first really bad heartbreak. Now that I’m employed I’m working 10 x’s as hard as I ever did before, because I’m waiting on that other shoe to drop. It’ll happen, it’s only inevitable. The savings account and the stress level both are at an all time high because I don’t want to go back there, to that ugly dark place where I couldn’t buy shoes and couldn’t go out to eat. It wasn’t pretty.
Now that I’m a bit more settled into a routine of work, school, socializing and shopping, I’m going to make time to write a bit more. I may have to come up with a new blog name though. Although, perhaps Jobless Julie will remind me of where I was and where I hope to be going. Maybe keeping my past as a part of my present isn’t such a bad idea.
